I really don’t know about what can I write here. This is the last post. And I thought that it has to be something good, or something that people or even myself can read in the future and can think : mmm, this was myself writing is some blog on my first year college. I was a nice person, but now I know that I’m better than that, I’ve been growing up with the years and I’ve become in a better person. I will try that this words over here can show something like that.
time is flying away, like he was running for something
running away for fears, looking for happines, closing his eyes in front the reality.
reality..the only enemy of time.
The time, and his lovely way of passing slow
when you needed less
and passing faster, whe you needed more.
And the burlesque reality, trying to show you everything that life has.
trying, because never is like that.
And people say: you must calm, breath and continue with your things
like nothing.
Sometimes i get the feeling that I don’t know where I am. What I’m doing.
Why I choosed this? Is the right way?… The best decision?
I can’t calm myself when I know that something is not okay. When I know that I lost myself between the bad decisions and the bad results.
I’m not confused. I know that I have to do something.
But the cuestion is: did I have to do something right now? or just wait a little time to think more in my future decisions?
This year until now, has been harder, more than I was expecting.
I had to say goodbye to a person who undertook a different way of life. She is in a better place, that’s for sure. I will always love my grandma, I still miss you, but we will see each other soon.
I had to discard any possibility in love stuff, because the only person who used to be my everything, is going to be a father in a few months.
I had to start again, separated of my parents, building new dreams in academic world, making new friends, making everything again.
Maybe I’m not in the right place, in the right career. But I have to make everyday a new day full of learnings and infinites searchings for knowing myself a little more.
Life is waiting to begin everyday.. but I don’t know how to begin…And I’ll never know, no ones know. That’s the curious part.
But, don’t give up! And always try to keep a smile with you. Maybe today you can see the things with other colors
Deja un comentario