What about decisions? Don’t wanna talk about it.

I really don’t know about what can I write here. This is the last post. And I thought that it has to be something good, or something that people or even myself can read in the future and can think : mmm, this was myself writing is some blog on my first year college. I was a nice person, but now I know that I’m better than that, I’ve been growing up with the years and I’ve become in a better person. I will try that this words over here can show something like that.
time is flying away, like he was running for something
running away for fears, looking for happines, closing his eyes in front the reality.
reality..the only enemy of time.
The time, and his lovely way of passing slow
when you needed less
and passing faster, whe you needed more.
And the burlesque reality, trying to show you everything that life has.
trying, because never is like that.
And people say: you must calm, breath and continue with your things
like nothing.
Sometimes i get the feeling that I don’t know where I am. What I’m doing.
Why I choosed this? Is the right way?… The best decision?
I can’t calm myself when I know that something is not okay. When I know that I lost myself between the bad decisions and the bad results.
I’m not confused. I know that I have to do something.

But the cuestion is: did I have to do something right now? or just wait a little time to think more in my future decisions?
This year until now, has been harder, more than I was expecting.
I had to say goodbye to a person who undertook a different way of life. She is in a better place, that’s for sure. I will always love my grandma, I still miss you, but we will see each other soon.
I had to discard any possibility in love stuff, because the only person who used to be my everything, is going to be a father in a few months.
I had to start again, separated of my parents, building new dreams in academic world, making new friends, making everything again.
Maybe I’m not in the right place, in the right career. But I have to make everyday a new day full of learnings and infinites searchings for knowing myself a little more.
Life is waiting to begin everyday.. but I don’t know how to begin…And I’ll never know, no ones know. That’s the curious part.

But, don’t give up! And always try to keep a smile with you. Maybe today you can see the things with other colors

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My own tracklist

All we know how music is important in our lives. Everytime and every day wehave a little song or just a melody inside us, which accompanies us and gives some colour to our thoughts and feelings. I really don’t know what would it be of my life without music, and I know that many people may think the same but they don’t says to the others. Music completes every moment that I live, and as I enjoy listening I also like (a lot) sing. I’ve been singing since I was 3 years old, my father teached me really good songs and this is the principal reason for what I know so many balads and old songs. So, when I started to live here in Santiago, I realized that I was missing something about my old city and about myself, something that make my days complete and filled my heart in a unknow form. And the answer was just this: Sing songs at least once in a day. So then, i decided to present to you a tracklist with my favourite songs that can’t be out of my days, at least in a week. Yes, all this letters that I wrote was just an introduction, but don’t worry, here

comes the best part.

note: it was a hard decision to pick just some songs, I felt a very bad at the moment that i choosed a for one. I hope you like =).
1. The Carpenters – Close to you
2.Alan Parson Project- Don’t Answer me
3. Smashing Pumpkins- 1979
4. The Beatles- Don’t let me down
5. David Gates- Suite, Clouds & Rain
6. The Doors- My eyes Have seen you
7. Rod Stewart- The year of the cat
8. E.L.O- Shangri La
9. The Bangles- Eternal Flame
10. The Cure- Close to me.

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More than a teacher.

When you are studying a career with a lot of important people through history, you don’t know who to choose. But when I was 16, a few years ago, I did a school job with research, and I met a Chilean woman who did a great job being a teacher. Her name is Amanda Labarca, and she also was a writer, feminist and a political woman. She was born in Santiago on December, 5 in 1886. She graduated from Instituto Pedagogico, in Universidad de Chile, as a state teacher with Spanish mention; then she studied in some other countries like EE.UU and France.
In 1922 she obtained the position of Extraordinary Professor of Psychology, Faculty of Philosophy, Humanities and Education at Universidad de Chile, becoming the first Chilean woman to teach college-level teaching. She was elected President of the Chilean Federation of Feminine Institutions. And wrote numerous books of education and feminism. She died in Santiago on January 2, 1975, at age 88.
I really like all the things that Amanda could make in their life, because she could study and become in the first woman to teach college-level teaching. And her own life was dedicated to fighting for what she wanted. She is a big inspiration for me, I would like to make something better in education, being someone that contributes to my work, and her life is just inspiring for me.

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